The more Doctors I see the more frustrated I get

This is a photo of me and my little Bichon Frise, Aaron. I don't know what I would do without him, and I don't know what I will do when he is gone. Remember I said earlier that when you live a life of Chronic pain, the first to go are your friends, then your family, but he is always

there, no matter what.

I saw a new Doctor today and got the usual, we can do an epidural shot to which I replied NO! Then the next thing is the no I can't prescribe anything for pain or at least anything that will help.

I look at my little dog that I love so much, the one that is always there for me, yet if I knew that he was in the kind of pain that I am in, that he was suffering like I am, I would take him and have him put to sleep because I couldn't stand to see him suffer. It would be one of the hardest things that I have ever done in my life, yet I would do it out of love for him.

But what do we do in our so-called civilized society for people in unbearable pain. Nothing!! Oh they will do surgery on you just as long as you will let them. More surgery is not going to help someone like me. The damage has already been done. Nerves in your central nervous system don't regenerate themselves. I am not saying that there aren't any good and ethical physicians out there because there are. But I am saying that has not been my experience. I don't entirely blame the medical profession either. Much of it has to do with politics.

The Bush Administrations war on drugs has scared many physicians from prescribing opiods because they are afraid of the DEA. I am no drug addict and neither are the millions of people like me who have to depend on powerful pain medication just to exist, forget about having any kind of meaninful life. Just to exist. So where does that leave us? I'll tell you where it leaves us. Suffering!!! Maybe they should pass a law to make it legal to do what I would have to do to my little dog, Aaron. Just put us to sleep!!