Monday, February 19, 2007

The medical failures that people with a life of pain have to live with

I can't describe the level of frustration I feel when I am stuck with a life of pain, especially when I ask, for example, a nurse about a procedure I had that was approved in late 1983, has left me with a life of agony and they have never heard of it. The reason of course is very simple. They don't teach them about it in nursing schools. Most doctors know, but they want talk about it. Even in my present condition, I am still faceing fusions at L4-L5 and L5-S1 and now I also have nerve root impingement at 3 cervical discs. I can hardly wear a shirt because of the burning sensation in my upper back. My pain level has gone from a 4-5 on a 10 scale, which I had for 20 years, to a constant 9-10 level. My spine surgeon has never even diagnosed my cervical area, even though I had a MRI for it about 8 months ago. While he was looking at my lumbar MRI when I ask about the cervical area, he said he couldn't talk about, I would have to make another appointment for that. Sometimes I really want to just give up. Where in the hell is the compassion!! If I were a Dr. myself (which I am not), there is no way in hell I could let a patient walk out of my office with the levels of pain that I have without helping them. But they do every day across this country to other people just like me. Just go to some of the pain forums.
Their excuse is, I am afraid you will become addicted. "Addicted my ass", I am worried about how to live one more day and this so-called Dr. is worried about me becoming addicted. I have said this before and I will say it again. I know there are good physicians. I have one, my psychiatrist of 15 years and I thank God for him. As for as the rest, at least in my life, I have nothing good to say.